I know everyone has had a rough week every once in a while and this week it is my turn. Have you ever been sooooo tired you can't sleep? Well it has hit me big time this week. For three nights now in a row I have only been able to get maybe 2 hours sleep per night. On top of this it has been very busy at work. I have Jury Duty starting tomorrow right after work, I have back to school night for Travis after Jury Duty and depending on how long the jury duty lasts i still have to take Darylene to the dentist on Friday. So Malcolm has decided to go to back to school night with Travis so i can try to get some sleep. (Hopefully) And as for the dentist we will deal with that when it comes up. It all depends on the Jury Duty.


Denise

Every happening, great and small, is a parable whereby God speaks to us, and the art of life is to get the message.
The art of life???Basically I think this means is to pay close attention to all we can to that which happens about us.There is a reason for these happenings,to which I highly doubt we as humans will never fully understand.I believe we are to use them nonethe less in a way which helps us as well as our fellow beings to the best of our ability to do so.
A feeble explanation I am sure but one which I think most people as well as myself struggles with every minute of every day.The point being in the end to do that which God intended.Ahhhh but then who is to say what God intended??? do I need to attain a state of grace to know exactly what God intended??I suppose that one must delve deeper in scripture and discussion with others to truly gather all information in helping reach such a goal.
To me this has always been a difficult process,although thru my marriage for some reason with Denise I find myself asking these questions quite often.Denise and her children come from a much more church/christian upbringing than did I.And I have to say it made quite an impression upon me.
I will keep reading and studying this for the rest of my life I am sure.Perhaps the answers are right in front of me.Only one way to find out and that is with an open mind.It will be a struggle as an open mind is something I have never been accused of...hahahahahaha....stay tuned

JUST A LITTLE FOOD FOR THOUGHT............HMMMMMMMMMM
Marshall Mcluhan Quotes
The medium is the message. This is merely to say that the personal and social consequences of any medium - that is, of any extension of ourselves - result from the new scale that is introduced into our affairs by each extension of ourselves, or by any new technology. Marshall Mcluhan

I was listening to music today and I remembered a song by Kathy Mattea. This song was written about her parents one of them had Alzheimer's. Just thought I would share it. The song is called Where've you been..........

Claire had all but given up,When she and Edwin fell in love. She touched his face and shook her head,In disbelief, she sighed and said:"In many dreams I've held you near,"Now, at last, you're really here.
"Where've you been?"I've looked for you forever and a day."Where've you been?"I'm just not myself when you're away."
He asked her for her hand for life,And she became a salesman's wife.He was home each night by eight,But one stormy evening, he was late.Her frightened tears fell to the floor,Until his key turned in the door.
"Where've you been?"I've looked for you forever and a day."Where've you been?"I'm just not myself when you're away."
They'd never spent a night apart, For sixty years, she heard him snore. Now they're in a hospital, In separate beds on different floors.
Claire soon lost her memory, Forgot the names of family. She never spoke a word again,Then one day, they wheeled him in. He held her hand and stroked her hair, In a fragile voice she said:
"Where've you been?"I've looked for you forever and a day."Where've you been?"I'm just not myself when you're away.""No, I'm just not myself when you're away."


If you get the chance listen to the song it will touch your heart as it did mine.....

Denise

A LITTLE SONG FOR NEESY!!!!
C’est la vie Have your leaves all turned to brown Will you scatter them around you C’est la vie Do you love And then how am I to know If you don’t let your love show for me C’est la vie In the night Do you light a lover’s fire Do the ashes of desire for you remain Like the sea There’s a love too deep to show Took a storm before my love flowed for you C’est la vie Like a song Out of tune and out of time All I needed was a rhyme for you C’est la vie Do you give Do you live from day to day Is there no song I can play for you C’est la vie

ok.....this is the ice hotel near quebec city,canada...it is denise's dream to one day go there and stay .This place actually performs all the same functions as a regular hotel.Marriages,dinners,dances,a lounge etc.....some of the pics we ahve seen are truly beautiful.I think spending christmas there would be nice as well.

Meeting the Risen Christ
It was while I was in the Holy Land for the purpose of making three B.B.C. television programmes on the New Testament that a curious, almost magical, certainty seized me about Jesus' birth, ministry and Crucifixion . . . I became aware that there really had been a man, Jesus, who was also God - I was conscious of his presence. He really had spoken those sublime words - I heard them. He really had died on a cross and risen from the dead. Otherwise, how was it possible for me to meet him, as I did? . . . The words Jesus spoke are living words, as relevant today as when they were first spoken; the light he shone continues to shine as brightly as ever. Thus he is alive, as for instance Socrates - who also chose to lay down his life for truth's sake - isn't . . . The Cross is where history and life, legend and reality, time and eternity, intersect. There, Jesus is nailed for ever to show us how God could become a man and a man become God.



Oddly enough it was while reading about the life and near suicde of malcolm mauggeridge, a one time atheist,and meeting my beautiful wife Denise that I began to look more deeply into my own beliefs and where they lie.I am to this very day still searching but I feel a closeness to god that I had never felt in my previous forty years or so...........

well,it has been a little over a weeks worth of employment at foodsco and I have to say that I am disappointed.The hours weren't the hours I was told I would be working.In fact they were all over the place.Some at night,some early morning and some afternoons.I hardly got to see denise at all.She hates it,the kids hate it and I hate it.After working for thirty years in the baking industry I have to say That on a personnel note I felt quite embarrassed by the work I had to do and for the poor rate of pay.It feels like I have traveled backwards in time to a period where I have just finished high school and needed a job,any job.I do have some savings and Denise has said repeatedly that she at this moment prefers me to stay home and take care of household chores(dishes,cleaning,groceries,pick up the kids etc).Travis has a few problems with school and things,so we decided today that I would thank the store for their opportunity they gave me but at this time our family life is a tad more important to us.Lat year with a lot of hard work Travis showed great improvement in his school work and we don't want to fall backwards.I think if foodsco could have promised me the 2 a.m. to 11 a.m. shift we could have done this.But the other shifts don't allow for much interaction between me and my new family.I have been thru this in a previous marriage and I don't want to go thro this again.When Trav shows more personnel responsibility then I think we will try for this employment again.We are not actually hurting financially as I think everyone believes.In actual fact Denise and I tend to be overly careful about our money.We would like to thank all our friends from church and our families for their prayers.Deep down they weren't wasted as we found out how much people were worried about us and it is a warm feeling to know we are in their thoughts.We will be fine and I will be back working soon but I think perhaps it may be in another profession as I think the baking industry has changed so much that you don't have to be very skilled to be a baker anymore.oh well,perhaps walmart or target aren't all that bad or maybe even go back to working my other job(bookstore).Once again thanks to all and once again,don't worry"We will be just fine!!"

A quiet evening while my princess sleeps
what am i thinking???

I love you so much,
And I just about died,
When you stood in front of me,
And just started to cry.

Its tears of joy,
That ran down your cheek,
One; for every second,
That you didnt speak.

Its never been the same,
From that moment on,
When I asked you to marry me,
And we became one.

From that day forth,
Its plain to see,
Theres still a lot of talk,
About you and me.

I promise to love you,
For the rest of my life,
Thats the reason,
I made you my wife.

Let them talk,
And do what they do,
It doesnt matter to me,
As long as I have you.



I love you Neesy

I find myself almost dumbfounded by the complete lack of promptness by the u.s.government to mobilize medical help,military help,and any other kinds of help.The slow response is mystifying in that when 911 happened or the tsunami in Asia happened or earthquakes in California happen the reaction was amazingly quick and severe.IT is also amazing is that this catastrophe happened to the largest seaport in states.The most refineries are here as are the majority of ocean oil rigs.Of course now the gas prices have skyrocketed to record highs.hmmmmmmmmm....some times these coincidences are food for thought.I had to laugh when I saw George Bush's response about gas stations raising prices in the stricken area to almost five dollars a gallon.He said"it should be against the law!!"......sheeeeeesh......hes the darn president,perhaps he might think to make it a law.......I watched and heard a bit of the telethon on NBC last night for the hurricane relief......A young rap artist named kanye west said that racism is the cause for the slowness in response for help .Ii do not agree with his announcement last night on a telethon,but I cant help but see some sense to that which he saying.He said he watched the media show blacks taking food and supplies from a store and the reporter called it looting.However the same reporter a night later showed a group of white men loading a truck with the ssame goods and he called it searching for supplies for their hungry families.................hmmmmmmm.....I am very happy to see the response of people across the u.s. and my home country(Canada).That they are willing to give whatever is available to help the thousands of southerners believe it may take years to get back that which has been lost.This perhaps is a larger disaster to hit the country than even 911......This truly will hit every single American some way or another for quite some time....The economy of the country has taken a huge hit.......And we are wobbling a bit at the moment......But I am sure with hard work and commitment we will endure.....

I had to stop watching CNN for a bit. The news is very sad and depressing right now. I am glad to see that people are finally starting to get supplies and help. My question is why did it take so long for the people in New Orleans to get supplies and the help they need? WHYYYY?????
I just could not believe my eyes when i watched yesterday people starving and people dying of dehydration. When 911 happened there was help everywhere. Just makes you think is all. Anyways, enough talk about that. My Mom and Dad are going to be traveling to Yukon, Oklahoma to see my Grandmother. My grandma has not been feeling to well these days. I just hope they make it there and back safely.

Denise

for my princess

you are my river

keep on flowing through

filling my life

with all of you

you are the freedom

I've been searching for

Oh how I love you

just for who you are

there will be hard times

everyone must go through

testing his love

just to see if its true

BuT the hard times will come

But they all pass away

I have seen the light In my life today

Thats why I love you

just for who you are

Denise

YOU ARE MY RIVER

ahhhhhhhh.......and then i look at this........All IS GOOD STILL!!!!!